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Wednesday, October 12, 2022

Up or Down, In or Out

 Falling up requires towering imagination,

like a very long book read backwards,
one printed with reverse pagination.
What if rain fell upwards?
I can see it clearly, how about you?
If so, how would a rainbow assemble,
perhaps as the brightest horseshoe?
I know some folks must think it quite stupid,
but those same folks think love comes from Cupid.
Niagara Falls would have to flow up, not down
but your own falls wouldn’t lead to a frown.
I say, falling up, it’s the new falling down.
What about physical laws, you might say?
Ignore them, they’ll just float away.
And those dreams, hopes and wishes
which today flit off as they may,
will fall back to your heart, where they’ll stay.
Gravity?
Schmavity.

Thursday, October 6, 2022

A Friend is Gone

 I first met Dennis some 48 years ago, seemingly quite by accident, but actually know now it was how the universe brought us together. A little burned out as a rehabilitation counselor, unknowingly with PTSD, 850 other folks and I applied for two open positions in a new office which had been created by Dennis himself. Somehow I made it through the screening process and was sent on for final interviews. Although Dennis had a supervisor of counselors who would be doing the interviews, he noticed me and brought me into his office for a chat. I later learned just how thoroughly he approached his work, and that he spoken privately to the oral board members, resulting in him directing the supervisor to hire me and do what he wished with the other position. This was the start of a long relationship, both personal and professional, and he was consistently there for me, as a leader and mentor. I really didn’t acknowledge my PTSD, and it led me to a number of wrong choices, but Dennis always stepped in to give me a nudge in the right direction. When I was bored and ready to move on, he gave me a supervisory challenge. When Vietnamese immigrants became our clients, he charged me, against my wishes, with creating and managing a program of services for them, a task which altered my view of humanity in general. When the federal and state governments gave us funding for a new program, he encouraged me to install my dream program, one I had told him about from grad school, while we were sipping wine in a hot tub…a place, rare for me, where I let someone other than my wife see my war-riddled body scars. 

When I think about those years and the time which followed, so many words come to mind….gratitude, trust, support, partnership, and, of course, friendship. Even as we lived an ocean apart, we maintained our connection, and when I began exposing my most intimate thoughts through poetry, he again became supportive and encouraging. It saddens me that we have lost such a good soul, but not his memory, and I know I will write about him as time goes by, including now…


My Friend


It was natural and easy

to tell him how I felt

after he had lain ill before,

after my own infirmity 

made us partners again. 

It’ll be harder now,

but not impossible.

Still, it’s been but a short while 

and I am already losing that smile,

the truth of his gaze,

the wonder of his face.

So I will write of him when I can,

tell others about a good man,

in this way perhaps I’ll let

myself never forget.

Wednesday, October 5, 2022

A Smart Rodent

 Wiser Than Me


There’s a cunning little mouse

living on my tomato plant,

and I try so hard to catch that louse,

but it seems I simply can’t.

I’ve tried all kinds of traps and bait,

but he tells the others to go ahead, please.

he tells them he’s inclined to wait,

knows it’s the second mouse who gets the cheese.

Awakening

 “By morning

I had vanished at least a dozen times

into something better.”


from Sleeping In The Forest by Mary Oliver 

© Mary Oliver


I Awaken


I am not living

the life I imagined.

This one is far better.

I see that I am becoming,

just passing through,

mingling between two eternities.

Might as well do so

with joy and laughter,

rejoicing in each day,

walking more slowly,

experiencing Grace.

Every day

I have the chance

to be happy,

to enjoy this life I chose.

Even on days of unease,

in moments of disease,

I see there is something,

an experience or two,

which I must need.

I don’t know

how many days are left to me

but I hope to

make a difference with them,

and if all I ever did

for the rest of this life was to

feel grateful,

it might be sufficient.

I shall do my best

to say beautiful things,

to inspire, to help, be kind,

to attend to Spirit's voice,

stay open to

each morning’s gifts.

First and last

 Saigon: In all wars there must be a first death and a last death; and while they are no different from all the thousands that separate them, they somehow seem specially tragic. The first GI to die in the Vietnam war was Army Spec. 4 Tom Davis (left) of Livingston, Tenn., who was killed 12/22/61 near Duc Noa, South Vietnam, while serving as an adviser to South Vietnamese troops. The apparent last American to die in the war was Air Force Sgt. John O'Neil Rucker (right) of Linden, Texas, killed at Da Nang only hours before the 1/28 cease fire.

Saturday, October 1, 2022

September 2022 17’s

 September 


Changing the world

one precious thought at a time,

making it all good 


Meaningful friendships

are the best things we can have.

I treat mine with care.


It’s easier to

make adjustments to what’s true

than to force your will.


Grand thoughts are useless

if not followed by some work,

a little action.


Zero means nothing,

not that it has no value.

Nothing is calming.


Life is your playground.

Expect a joyful outcome.

Forget small, play big.


Light a candle for 

another person and you

enjoy its light too. 


Appreciating 

the grace I live in helps me

sleep through the long night.


Ups, downs, ins and outs.

Ah, sweet mystery of life.

Never too boring.


I open my eyes,

my heart and mind as well, to

just being alive.


Sometimes I still get

angry, but then tell myself,

self, nope, not today.


You can’t score by

kicking into your own net.

Even children know this.


Even when I avoid

the truth, it sits there,

calmly waiting for me. 


I am a huge fan

of little acts of kindness,

always say thank you.


Some negative thoughts 

entering your head? Well then,

close the damn window.


I get up, look in

my mirror, think I should just

find someplace quiet.


Less forcing, more flow.

Less fearing, more grace and joy.

Less hating, more love.


Each day I’ve a chance

to be happy, to enjoy

this grand life I chose.


Paying attention.

Is this how I want to sound?

Tone is important.


Occasional zen.

No mistakes, only lessons.

I live and I learn. 


A day for big guns,

compassion, prayer, right action,

and, oh yes, laughter.


It is a good plan

to let a poem rest awhile,

until it’s ready.


Publishing my poems

is much like going naked

in front of others.


I try to not be

accidental in my life,

to have some purpose.


Hey, I’m listening,

so feel free to start talking.

I’m available.


The power of prayer

is not to ask for something,

but to listen more.


Self-help books are like

those pretty cookbooks I have.

Action is required.


Words are powerful.

Once they leave my mouth, they grow,

for better or worse.


Trust is difficult 

but it’s calmer to seek it

than to always doubt.


I get happy days

in life when I do not stop

before they arrive.

Sunday, September 25, 2022

A Time…

 A Time To Remember 


It’s been a peaceful month

in our home near the sea,

where the locals are old, 

visitors are grateful, 

distant poets all in good form.

It’s been a month of reunion,

and daily thanksgiving, 

of many old friends

and a new few. 

We live mostly for today, 

knowing the gods will laugh 

at foolish plans beyond 

breakfast or lunch.

Winter’s not yet here, 

the heat lingering on.

No complaints heard, however,

not so much that they aren’t made,

just not heard. 

There’s much to be learned 

at this age, in this age.

A little loss of sound can be a blessing,

a chance to return to the

total self-absorption of youth.

This month brings homecoming reminders,

a time for connection and reconnection,

visits, phone calls, letters, cards, and emails,

in that very descending order of intimacy.

It really is unfortunate 

what that email thing has done to

letter writing, ancient and loving art.

Letters give more time, have more heart, 

allow the writer to be reflective, like a poet, 

searching, reaching, looking

for just the right words.

A writer of letters gets to recall,

to muse a bit about the addressee, to

remember precious moments, to dream of

better moments yet to come, 

maybe even to plan some, to say so.

It is a peaceful activity, letter writing,

perfect for the cooler days of year’s end. 

We’ll tiptoe through these next few weeks, 

knowing soon, the new year will come

and we’ll make it our peaceful own.

My sweetie, our old cat and me.